Almost every spiritual practice seems to ask that you surrender your human will or perhaps ego to some higher being or another. I seem incapable of doing that.
Oh, I say the words. I pray and meditate. I recognize that I can't "fix" my life by myself. I try to "let go and let God" as the saying goes.
Alas, I'm clueless how this would look, what I would do, or what I would feel. I got nothing! I can be devastated, overwhelmed, terrified and yada yada, but the best I can do at those moments is say: "Help!" That doesn't feel like surrender. It feels like I've been taken hostage by life. I'd like to be more willing to trust some universal good. I want to do this; I don't know how.
I sometimes have fun with it, playing my guitar and singing the old song: "If I give my heart to you" only substituting the word "will" for heart. So, I can read about it, pray about it, joke about it, sing about it, but I can't really do it.
Yes, I'm working the 12-Steps and I have no problem admitting I'm powerless over lots of things and people. I've got the first step down cold. Then, we get to the second step where you recognize that maybe there's a higher being that could restore some clarity. I get that. At the third step which is actually turning your will over to this alleged being, I'm stumped. Did anyone once feel stuck like this and then find ways to let go?
A friend of mine said that he started out by letting go of little things like having to control the family remote! Another friend said he gives his will to God when he gets up in the morning and spends the rest of the day trying to get it back. So, I know it's not the easiest thing for many, many of us. Please post your ideas in the comments section for the benefit of all those, like me, who can go through the motions but secretly know it's not for real. Roxie
Oh, I say the words. I pray and meditate. I recognize that I can't "fix" my life by myself. I try to "let go and let God" as the saying goes.
Alas, I'm clueless how this would look, what I would do, or what I would feel. I got nothing! I can be devastated, overwhelmed, terrified and yada yada, but the best I can do at those moments is say: "Help!" That doesn't feel like surrender. It feels like I've been taken hostage by life. I'd like to be more willing to trust some universal good. I want to do this; I don't know how.
I sometimes have fun with it, playing my guitar and singing the old song: "If I give my heart to you" only substituting the word "will" for heart. So, I can read about it, pray about it, joke about it, sing about it, but I can't really do it.
Yes, I'm working the 12-Steps and I have no problem admitting I'm powerless over lots of things and people. I've got the first step down cold. Then, we get to the second step where you recognize that maybe there's a higher being that could restore some clarity. I get that. At the third step which is actually turning your will over to this alleged being, I'm stumped. Did anyone once feel stuck like this and then find ways to let go?
A friend of mine said that he started out by letting go of little things like having to control the family remote! Another friend said he gives his will to God when he gets up in the morning and spends the rest of the day trying to get it back. So, I know it's not the easiest thing for many, many of us. Please post your ideas in the comments section for the benefit of all those, like me, who can go through the motions but secretly know it's not for real. Roxie
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